I've seen that dude on TV

I miss this site, I miss where I can spit it all fucking out without anyone giving shits abt it nor read it. I miss everything, I miss the year 1994 - 2001. But the clock wont stop ticking. I am not that good of a person, I rarely pray, I curse a lot, I dont give shits abt little things. but I believe that, even if u're a fucking fuck dip shit person. u still have heart. thats all matter. I miss my dad, I miss my mum, I miss my brother, I miss the time where we'd go to anywhere that I want, we would having so much fun. but things changed, I never blamed u dad for the divorce but, I'm just sad that it happened. I never had a real 'family' so to say, I want to feel what its like to just come back home and see ur parents in front of u. I want that feeling. I'm just, pathetic. I need friends, girlfriend sheesh that can wait I guess, I need TRUE FUCKING FRIENDS that will stand by me, no matter what. well some might say that 'dude ur high school friends wont last, when u work u'll have new friends' well fuck that. they will never be the same as my retarded high school mates!! i love u guys u know that, I just dont know how to show it. but I know there is hope, there is always hope. God is our hope, Allah. how I'm sad that I'm far away from You. I used to do what You asked, I prayed before, I'm sad that I've changed to a fucking loser. thats it. I will make this a promise, I will try to start pray again, and leave all the dirty things. insyaAllah. God help me. God bless us. Peace.